Freedom

2008-10-30T21:32:00.003+08:00

I have finally register my business course in mdis. It been quite awhile till i have decide to study business, but I like to take business. Its not that i dun like IT, I like IT too but I like Business too. School will be starting in 24th of Nov 2008. After so long for stressing over my studies or working. I have decided to study. For my future, I really must study hard and do well. I very excited as I can finally start my studies soon. Althought it will be tough for me as i have not been studying for quite long, i will study very hard.

2008-10-27T16:14:00.002+08:00

Its been so long since I last play badminton. Last week I just play badminton, my right hand and my right hand are aching all over. Its been aching a few days already and i'm still aching all over now.

Days has pass and i'm still trying to enrol myself in a private school. For the better of my furture, I need need to study well.

2008-04-24T00:14:00.003+08:00

About 2 days ago, when i was on my way back home, i waiting for bus 15 to go back home then change another bus home. When bus 15 arrived, it was so crowded and i almost couldn.t get on the bus, but luckly i got on the bus. During the jouney, a tennage boy was arguring with the bus driver. The teenage boy call the command centre and tell them that the bus driver confiscated his pass as he was using a pass with stickers and the card was a secondary school card when he himself admitted that he was a poly student. He keeps complaning to the command centre that he is utterly disappointed with the bus service and the bus driver, and also he say that if people were to ask him for identity, he cannot show people his pass. He already a poly student, age of 17, shold already have an Identity Card with him. What rubbish is he talking about. He only pay 55 cents for the trip. Even now primary school student are using ez link card, no more using of stickers. Even if it is the bus stamp, it will be stored in the ez link card.

When the command centre contact the bus driver (when he was reaching pasir pis soon), the bus driver told what happen to his officer, even the officer from the command centre also say that the bus driver has the right to confiscated his card. I think that the poly students is trying to cheat the bus driver, and he also plan to use the card for further trip. What is the kid trying to do, whats the point of cheating the bus driver. At the moment, i can say i support the bus driver. I think the student got something wrong. He was in the wrong and he still dares to complained to the bus command centre and say that he is right, no wrong at all. Even other poly students knows what to do when taking bus.

IT Session Talk

2008-04-23T22:25:00.002+08:00

Date: 23 April 2008, Mr Yeo & i went to a place for a IT Session talk. The place is at IOI Plaza, near bugis area. I ask him to go with me as he can advise me and give me options on what i can do. But the final decision lies in me. The education centre is call EXCOM education. When we reach there, they gave us a file, inside containing all the information about the courses. There are three different types of course, Standard, Deluxe and Masters. The fees are quite high. The talk sessions was quite long but everything that i was thnking about, it was shown on the presentation and also they did explain during the talk. There were also lght refreshment.

I wanted to study IT as i was interested in Information Technology. The courses that they provided have networking, doing sever, software and others too. The intake for full-time is 26th May and the part-time is on the 24th June. Full-time lesson is on Monday to Friday (9am to 5.30pm), and as for part-time is on Tuesday, Thursday (6.30pm to 10.30pm), and Saturdays is 9am to 5pm. They also say that after we have pass the course, they can help me get a job and guaranteed within 4 months. I'm not sure but i think the pay might be a good pay of salary. Next week, I have an appointment with them on tuesday at 7.30pm after my work. I hope Mr Yeo can go with me as he can help me to ask some question then i think that i'm not able to ask.

As for my current job now, i'm sure how long i can work there, if i really plan to study at EXCOM education, less then a year, i will be able to finish the course if i pass.... and get a job within 4 months. I like IT stuff and also be able to work in an IT industrail place. Well, for now, i have to think about it and make my decision.

2008-04-16T21:13:00.002+08:00

Today my General Manager talk to me. He ask me to change from my part-time job to my full-time. The pay that he was going to give me was better then what i expected. He also tell me that I will have 14 days of leave and $50 claim of medical fees. I will also have performance bonus and might also have allowance too. He told me alot of things about the products. He was telling me that he as a local, hope to help the local Singaporean too. So far he say that he is satisfied with my work. The admin people and IT Engineering people are ok. The work oad was so far still fine.

The location was not very good as it was in an industrail park area. But the location from work and home was still ok, only one station away. The walking journey in and out was ok but when it rains, it will be worse. When it is raining heavily, even if have a big umbrella, you'll get drench. I once kana this, and my umbrella was a small one, that was worse. Its quite boring as there were nothing to do or nowhere to go, nearest is only safra. Maybe i might just walk out to safra or elsewhere to go or have my lunch ba.

Everytime after lunch, i would feel sleepy, feel like dozing off. Stomach isn't really well this days.

I want to thanks Lord for everything, work place is near home and the work isn't really that hetic. The people there was good also. If i'm not sure of anything, we can ask help for advise and help. Although the place was quite boring but it was better then nothing. Thank You Lord. Praise the Lord. Amen.

2008-04-14T22:44:00.003+08:00

Sometimes days doesn't goes well for me..... i my own self also dun know why or what happen to myself. Sometimes i just dun feel well, feel down, it just happen like that. Emotions just come like that.

I was so tired at work today, feel like sleeping. i pray for awhile during work, hoping i dun fall asleep, and hoping the day will go well. Today at work was hai hao, morning feel like sleeping but after awhile was fine after praying, i just do my work till my lunch time and i go for my lunch. After lunch i dun feel like going back as i still got time, i feel so bored around the factory area. After awhile i went back to work and continue doing my work. The day was fine during work and i went home. Not sure whether i'll see her when i pass by her house area when i was on the bus. Waiting for so long at the pasir ris bus interchange for the bus to go home.

During at about evening time, about 9pm, i help my sis to carry things to her place, sitting father's car. Suddenly i feel quite down, i dun even know why, when i'm not even there yet, i just feel like going back home. Sometimes i just feel down when i dun even know why.

I just want to say Sorry but sometimes maybe it doesn't help or wat. but i really dun know wat to do or say. So i only still can say Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry. (4 si)

2008-03-31T13:02:00.002+08:00

Lord, i'm really sorry for the sin that i have done, i ask for your forgiveness. i am a sinner.

Lord, please guide me in the right path that i shoud go.

2008-02-21T12:04:00.002+08:00

I'm quite sad that my school application was unsucessful. I was hoping to go back to study as i did not did well last time. I submitted my application once after the O level results and i waited till today thur 21 feb, i went to check and it was unsucessful. I'm sad.

What can i do..... should i go and appeal on the march again or should i go to private sch and study or should i go to work or is there any other way? what can i do.......

2008-01-17T13:15:00.000+08:00

just when i started to use the com today, suddenly i feel like i'm having a headache... i dun know why.... so sudden... i can't even finish my lunch.... maybe i just going to fall sick soon.......

as day passes by, i might be just getting lonely and lonely.... people working, studying, going out with familys and friends, sometimes i even see my grandma going out with her daughter. maybe i just dun really like to be alone unless otherwise...... hope to get my studies for higher nitec in simei for the april intake. i can't even get any work for now.... most of the times, i'll just be at home alone lonely going through everyday........ dun know wat to say for now... will continue if i got somethings to say.... bye for now.... take care everyone......

2008-01-16T00:29:00.000+08:00

Dear God, help me, i feel so sinful for everything i have done. I'm sorry Lord.

Dear God, i pray that everything will be alright, i pray for her too.

God, You are Good. Thanks You Lord. Amen.

2007-10-25T14:04:00.000+08:00

I just hope that I can spend more time with You outside. Although I have spend quite most of the time with You in school, but that is beacuse we come to work. And most of the time we are doing work.

2007-10-08T11:25:00.000+08:00

today I see like u are like very sian or something. I would like to ask you what happen. Hope you can share with me. Is it I did something wrong? just feeling tired? something happen at home? mother scold you? just like doesn't seems like your usual self today..... u look like very moody like that....

2007-10-03T12:22:00.000+08:00

Am i very useless........... they are helping her in the sem by reading the files, document, evidence or etc...... but i'm not. I'm just collecting data for her and sometime i even need to ask her wat is this and wat is that again and sometimes again. haiz..... how come.... they are helping her in a more faster way then me?/! am i right? when i ask him, he say wat he think that needs to be highlight, he will highlight. This way they might be more stress then me but seems like they are helping her more faster. Why can't i help her in finding the information too? Is it that i might scared that i will find the wrong infomation will do everthing wrong and will do all over again? I'm like just waiting for her to find out the missing document and i'm just going to collect the infomation from the teacher or HODs only.

2007-06-16T22:55:00.000+08:00

i just want to say, although we are friends, but the way i concern for you is more then just friends or best friends or wat so ever....... i just want u to know how i feel, hope u can understand how i feel. thats all... if not , its hard for me to rest, sleep at night or doing any others things...... hope u understand..... i'm not rushing u or myself into a relationship together........ i just want to care and concern for u..... pls... that all..... crying......

2007-06-15T21:51:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling very sad or wat, i myself dun know even..... just thinking about everything everyday... no mood to do this or that or anything..... wat i can do now is just think???? its making me very ah ah ah .. dun know wat to say.... can just let me die and stop thinking about all this........ its so painful.... i really do care for u no matter wat.......

2007-06-11T15:54:00.000+08:00

ever since one day, my mind is in a mess, my heart is very pain... i have been thinking and thinking alot... when i'm in front of others, i try to make sure that i cannot let them know that i'm feeling down. whenever i'm alone, wheres theres no one, sometimes i even want to cry out, making myself very pain. dun know why i cannot stop thinking about it..... y,y,y,y,y,y,y,y,y,y,y, y must this be happening to me... y y y y, its making me very miserable... dun know when this will end, it might not end. maybe i just let the pain and miserable continue... might as well dig my heart out and let me die...

i finally say it out

2007-05-26T13:22:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, 25 may 2007, i have finally tell her how i feel about her. i tell her that i like her and its true. I thought that after telling her, she will be trying to change to another topic or try to avoid it, but she didn't, she even ask me more about it, i was relieved. She even allow me to accompany her to go with her to Tampines to shop for her shoes. I as happy!! = ) For now i am quite happy already! Just hope that she will give me a chance to be with her! But no matter wat her decision is, i will respect it. I just want to be happy, as long she is happy, i am happy too. =)

Hoping for the best

2007-04-22T01:06:00.000+08:00

i have try to hint her by asking some question like what if someone tell u that he like u, she say "I think i will wait patiently for the right person. in the meantime, just make lotsa friends and enjoy singleness." I will respect her decision. In the meantime, i only can do what i can do to help her in anyway i can. Hope one day she will accept me unless somethings else happen, hope not.. Only can hope for the best now.

feeling veri sad, too sad

2007-04-21T23:17:00.000+08:00

haiz haiz.... when can i tell her i like her.... wat will the outcome be like? can anyone tell me wat or how to do!!! i really feel like telling her le, working at the same place will be very paiseh de.... haiz.....

2007-04-03T01:24:00.000+08:00

Date: 30/3/2007 (FRI)

The day i went for my operation, wat operation neh, haha... my face.. there was something like a small thing going on my face(i think), when i when there, i was waiting to be admitted, the nurse call me talk to me, told me to give everything to my parents. no metals stuff at all. After i pass to them i went in to change.woah, the first time i was changing to a patient 'clothes'... i waited for awhile before the nurse call me. while i was waiting, there was a Indian uncle was waiting to have the operation something like mine, we chat and chat, he told me that i should have wear slipper and come and i didn't knew as it was my first time there going to have a small operation. nvm, learn my lesson, after awhile, another uncle came out, he just came out from the operation room not long and was feeling giddy. i chat with that uncle too.

Then after awhile again, the nurse finally call me, i went with the nurse, she brought me in but no to the operation room yet, she took to to the operation room and ask me to wait outside.i waited for awhile and finally, the doctor came out and call me in. when i went in, the doctor ask meto smile, blah blah, as she needs to make a marking on my face so that he know wheres the mark to be removed............ continue another day, tired le, need to slp. haha

2007-03-29T23:16:00.000+08:00

I really dun know how to tell her, its like she only treating me as a friend. she came to my house and dinner with me, and my sister saw her but she was scared that my sis will get the wrong idea between me and her. i really feel like telling her that i like her alot. wat am i going to do!! ah ah ah ah ah....... wat if she really only treat me as a friend only.... my chances of being with her is like quite low. i dun even know exactly. haiz... = ( sometimes loving someone can be so painful. i just want her to be happy.

2007-03-28T22:24:00.000+08:00

Today she came up to my house and have dinner with me. Finally get a chance to invite her to my house, only my grandma was at home when she came... can see that she like small kids alot.. hehe.. hope the next time she come, my sister small kids will be around, then she can have fun with them. wanted to ask her to come to my sis room and see the baby stuff but my elder sis cane back so i couldn't show her, sad. Just wishing that i can win her heart over. = ) when she went back, i was thinking of sending her home but i just was that i should have my license long ago and a car so that i can send her back easier.

2007-03-24T23:50:00.000+08:00

Its been quite a while since i last wrote my blog. = )

Date: 20/03/07

I went over to her house for dinner, actually my house got cook de, but in the end i decided to go to her house and eat. Also dun know why. haha.... when i reach her house, her brother and his brother friends were around, but after awhile they went back. I had dinner with her, after that, we went to the living room and watch TV, her bro ask some question about me when he was having his dinner, his bro went out too after awhile later when he finish his dinner. Most of the time both of us were in the living room watching TV and chatting, i even saw her photo when she was from small till now. somehow, i fell like asking her something but, it just can't get it from my mouth. maybe I'm just too afraid to ask ba.

Valentines Day

2007-02-14T00:26:00.000+08:00

Today is Valentines Day. Here me wishing all couples a Happy Valentines Day. Enjoy yourself.

one of my sister

2006-12-12T00:38:00.000+08:00

Not i want to say this, but i sometimes i really can't stand it, but can say its makeing me veri angry, one of my sister is a veri lazy person, can say a few thousand times more lazier then me. I can't stand it. Before she got married and after she got married, she is still as lazy as ever. Food eat finish already, waiting for people to clear for her, drinks drink finish already also waiting for people to clear for her, no matter wat, let say out of 10 times she will only clear the things one or two times only, although my parents call me "da sao yea" i still clear my own things. Most of the times always wait for my parents to come back to clear for her, wat the heck sia!

She think she still 3 year old kid ah. Clear the things yourself la. So angry with her, everything also must wait for parents. The way she speak also like really want to fight with people like that. Ask her something or tell her something, she will make a big fuss out of it. Tell her nicely already still not happy, still talking in the way like fighting like that.

Sometimes i feel like blowing up, tiger dun explode u treat them as sick cat. i feel like shouting at them! i think when i'm really blown up, i think even the adults i scared the most also cannot stop me at all! They can talk jokes with u but we cannot talk jokes with them!

..........

2006-12-06T14:33:00.000+08:00

Today was a veri fUSTRATING day! I know it was my mistake for not telling mdm yesterday that i'm going on leave today , i already got scolding from her already! Then when S4 knows that i was on leave or something else, he say he wanted to charge me, what the hell sia, other people make alot of mistake for quite long already, and he did nothing to them until recently then he say he might going to take action to them, i only make this mistake and i have already apolgise to mdm already for not telling her, then now he so fast want to take action on me, what is this, baised or wat!

I have been taking care of 4 or 5 stores on my own, and also quite a few account to take care too. I didn't even argue with them or do anything else, i just wanted a take a rest at home! Everyone knows that the department is already lacking of man power already! But i already hav been trying to work my best for them already, i just wanted to take a few days of leave and rest at home, whats wrong, i dun understand,

2006-12-02T16:54:00.000+08:00

i frustrated now cause tml is the last day of the IT fair! cause i can't get my labtop! AH AH AH AH AH! SO Frustrated!! will i be able to get my labtop tml? i think will hardly get.......haiz i dun know wat to say already.

how to care for them?

2006-11-27T02:10:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i feel like i can't cheer up any person when they are in bad mood or wat. I feel like i'm really lousy. Dun know is it that i'm completly veri lousy at cheering up a person or wat. No matter who the person is, i'm just can't cheer the person up as a friend, cousin or anybody,

what should i do????

East Coast Park - 19/11/2006

2006-11-20T00:02:00.000+08:00

Today I went to east coast park with, ron, yan lin. Only the three of us went. When we reach there, ron went to change to his roller blade and yan lin and me went to rent bike, dun know what so special about today, almost all the bikes at the rental shop were rent out. But lucky we manage to rent two bikes but there were no more basket for us to put our drinks. so sad.... nvm. We cycle around east coast park for about one and a half hours.

As we were cycling and blading, We saw more people today then the last week we came, really dun know what event today is!! haha!! We even bought ice creams to eat, i bought blueburry icecream, not bad le.. hehe..... when the time was 4.45pm we cycle back to return the bikes. cause by 5pm need to return.

As we were cycling back to the rental shop, there was alot of bikes and roller blade everywhere, it was quite hard to cycle. As i was cycling behind yan lin, i folllow where she cycle her path, ............ suddenly boung. i know into a girl, omg, shit..... she keep saying sorry to me, i was so paiseh.... as yan lin should know why i would say that, hehe.... as i was saying, i apolgise to them but th dunn know got hear me anot, i also say it might be partly my fault as i was cycling too fast ba. Her hand was injured but dun know serious anot, then i ask her whether she was alright, dun know they got hear me anot, but i think not so, i feel bad too. Hope she dun curse me or wat.

After we return the bikes, dun know i still thinking about it, feeling so bad about it, then after that i try not to think, then we went to simei and eat, walk walk, play then go back home, rest and slp.

Exercise on Tuesday

2006-10-31T22:52:00.000+08:00

Its looks like every tuesday is my exercise day. Morning go camp, at about 7.30am got PT with the commandos. After book out, meet Mr Yeo, his wife and Mr Hong at some cc to play badminton. Today was quite a good one. Its been quite a long time since i jump around, todays badminton, i was jumping around trying to hit the ball, so funny today. I even got hit by the ball once. haha. But today, Mr Hong brought a friend over to play too. I knew it when Mr Yeo was bringing me to the cc. Not a bad day today and as least get to exercise, its been a quite a long time since i play badminton. Exercise more will be good. Yea. HAHA. But going back veri tired, shagged!! But i'll still be playing more often.

241006

2006-10-25T20:40:00.000+08:00

This day, i went out with my two friends. At first we went to downtown east and play, its been a long time since i go there even though i live in Pasir Ris. HaHa!!! We went there play as long as we want, then after that we went to watch movie. Before we went to watch movie, we stay at downtown east and play arcadd cause it was raining quite heavily. There was a game call "street basketball" at first there was not much people playing, everyone was just playing as per normal, but there was a guy who came and play, his score was so high that everyone was looking at him. After he finish his game, everyone started to play and play, once not enough cash, they would top-up their tapz card and play somemore. WAH!!! Everyone was so entu with it. haha

But this day was the poorest day of my life. I did not even expect that i would be so poor on this day. Lucky only this day not other day, so about watching the movie, we thought of watching at bedok, the princess there, haha, can't expect it right? haha, no choice. As we were taking the bus from downtown east to bedok, i was tired so i doze off in the bus. When we almost reach bedok, i woke up, my friends told me that venue has been change to vivo. I thought they were bluffing as we did not have enough money to go vivo city and watch movie, but one of them told me that their family is there and ask us to go there and watch movie with them and also treat us. Anyone would be happy when they know that someone is treating u. LOL!! So in the end we went there.

When we reach habourfront, we just walk to vivo city but we did not see where we are walking so we went the wrong way but not far, haha! then we walk back, it was cold there as i was wearing 3/4 short but in the end went to toilet and change. The E-ZONE there was open but small. Not much games were there to play, there were pool table too, but 7ft was charging at $10 per hour and 8ft was $12, so ex. To be con't.....

DEATH NOTE

2006-10-22T23:27:00.000+08:00

Today, late morning, i went to watch this movie call DEATH NOTE! It was a veri nice show to watch. Which is this young guy call guy call LIGHT vs a person call MR L. HAHA! Ths show was so interesting to watch them battle against each other. Both of them a very clever person. If you got watch the show, you will never expect MR L to be this kind of person. For those who have not watch, its for u to find out. LOL!!! For me, i would say watch it. Interesting show! HAHA!!

My Elder Sis

2006-10-19T21:05:00.000+08:00

My elder sis going to korea in dec, i also want to go but not enough money. haiz. two person go will be more cheaper, but if i one person will be more expensive. She told me now can pay by installment within 6 to 12 months. Since that, as least help me pay abit first, I'm now still in army, can't even fork out alot of money. My idiot elder sis only know how to nag and nag, dun even know how to care and concern for me. Talk to her, only know how to nag and nag. My grandma told me that my cousin sis treats her youner brother veri good, most of the time will sponser him buy thing or go overseas. And their bond is like alot more time better then me. Most of the time i see time can talk to each other nicely. I'm so envious. Why can't my sis do that. Haiz.

I'm not asking her to everything sponser me or what, i'm still his younger brother what. But maybe at least sponser me abit la. Even one cent also dun want to help me pay. Why can't she talk nicely to me most of the time. Most of the time when i talk to her, she will give me lots of reasons. I dun blame my sister-in-law for listening to her as its not his fault. But my sis, haiz...... Sometimes ask her buy dinner for me, come back also want me to pay. I know money is hard to earn but sometimes dun over a $2.50 dinner have to argue with me right.. Its not i want to say about her but, as her brother for 20 years, can say i'm also sick and tired of it. Maybe as for some people, they may think it that way, some people may not. I won't say anything, its up to urself.

Maybe its because i'm the youngest and the only son in the family, that why she expect me to have money of my own. To earn and to survive on my own. Maybe thats my life. I'm not independing of her. Keep it as a secret. Dun tell anyone, thanks unless i wish to do so.

Waking up Early!!

2006-10-18T23:08:00.000+08:00

What a day today, wake up so early just to go to camp and do morning PT with the commando. My officer told us "if they ask u to do this and that, no need to do" all bluff. In the end, we have to do th same PT as them. So sad for my dept people. Alot of us are in a c+ status and worse. in the end, some of us injured our back. Some PT they got there. Althought we are service side, at least tell us to do something else or what, they can treat us like we are not there. WA KAO!!! After the PT, we still got to carry stuff to return to other camp, so tired, andwas straight after the PT to retirn, all of us was sp damm tired!!! Just as i say, what a day today!!

Days in Army

2006-10-15T20:21:00.000+08:00

My days in army was quite a good and bad one. During my BMT in tekong, i have been through alot of training and exercise. But BMT was quite a memorable one. Now i still can quite remember what happen during BMT. After my BMT, i waited for my posting, i was posted to hendon camp, i was happy as it was near my camp. But the dept that i was in was a frecking bad one. The whole dept cannot stand her. Luckly in about 4mths time i'm going to ORD already. So happy, can't wait to ORD!!